My First Office!

July 13 , 2020 : 12th CBSE board results — and didn’t expected the crashing of site that badly . LOL !

waited for more than 4 hours for my results . The nervousness was stepping a ladder , and finally mates sent me class mark list .

95% (best five) — The happiness wasn’t taking a break for a moment . I was so happy that finally I’ll be able to make it to du somehow.

But , The caring Indian parent’s stories starts from here . It’s Co-vid . aren’t you aware about the same ? We can’t let you go this much far from us ! How will you manage all this? Just go after you turn 20! And it felt so heartbreaking .

Thousands thoughts in my mind — why the hell did i put so much efforts into studying for my boards if i had to stay here and struggle ? what’s the difference between me and the student scoring 70% ? I felt like crying , was going through a very bad and emotional phase where i couldn’t do anything except accepting what was happening .

Then Gradually when i made this sacrifice of not going to a very good college/to my most-wanted course . i got drastic push from there. I already had joined Avalon meta and it’s courses , and as the time passed I thought of stop learning for sometime and let’s start with some implementation ! I got little good at sales , psychology , convincing people etc etc . I eventually started converting an opportunities to a prospective clients and ending up cracking the deal somehow.

Tip: Remember that whenever you’re sacrificing something , you’re preparing yourself for the better future . Do not get afraid from sacrificing things . It makes you a lot better person and makes you self motivated , self independent as well as self disciplined!

I was literally zero at what i was doing . I didn’t knew F of freelancing or A of agency or even C of Company and not even a good English speaker (a very calm and a sweet girl .. you understand?) LMAO! I used to ask my senior friends if they can attend meeting with clients for me .. as i didn’t knew what they’ll ask ? How nd what to answer ? what if i ruin everything?

Then somehow , friends used to manage calls . But then slowly , a point came where nobody was there to attend them and i only had to come out of my comfort zone and attend that meeting anyhow . I was super nervous , hesitating . I seriously spoke in Hinglish with my south Indian client . ( I seriously laugh on this now even) . Then gradually after attending and ruining my 3–4 calls . I obviously failed so miserably !! after trying and trying frequent times , I got 3–4 small content writing or copywriting gigs and then as i slowly started getting to know about how market work .. I kept trying and one day was quite a happy puppy day because I cracked 2700$ USD deal from an international client , I didn’t knew how to face it .. How to react towards it..

Pro Tip to be taken from here which i personally learnt by experiencing it: Every time you’re trying to do something , things will not go the way you want . You’ll listen to 1000’s of stories and experiences of others like these but you’ll only get to know right when you’ll yourself experience it . Always do things with which you’re not so comfortable . “ JUST SEEK DISCOMFORT “ .

Now i never knew that a good amount of stress , work pressure also comes along with the happiness . Contracts , proposals , NDA , unusual meeting timings, how to negotiate etc made me learn Alot of things . Then the time comes when the same deal got terminated after 2 months . Didn’t expected that happiness to say me bye! so soon .. It was due to some strict guidelines for which we were not so much concerned !!

Tip: Never give up and always learn from your failures and mistakes . “Failures are your destination to success “

From that point onwards , I got a totally new perspective , I started seeing everything from a very positive mindset and started to actually grow then . I stopped everything and started with self learning . I picked up UI/UX Design as it attracted me somehow , continued learning for few months and took a break just to check if I can actually get the clients with what I’m doing .

Finally got to work on a SaaS product and a healthcare related website and app . It again gave me totally different perspective of UI/UX design . I got in depth into it and inherited a whole new world out of it .

Also i forgot to mention , those happy — sad — excited — funny moments were spent at my cute little humpty dumpty office . hehe ! yes , I got a lot people saying if you want to do something on your own , you seriously need your own personal space ! so i got a munchkin I.e my room’s balcony for the same and from then all the failures , mistakes , learnings , winings are continuing to be made there .

Also I stopped counselling people due to heavy work schedules... Umm , yaa I used to counsel people @kabiraspeak . Now I’m not any therapist or a psychologist , It’s just we used to give people a platform to speak their hearts out without being judged for the same ! People used to heavily connect with the content posted . I have seen people wanting to committing suicides texting us on 4am and to deal with them wasn’t easy but anyhow we thank to god that we saved some of the lives from that platform . Similarly people with parental pressure , relationship issues , with deadly diseases used to share what they’re going through , and we never knew how to tackle them , to some people we advised them to see the doctors and some only needed a warm virtual hug and a person with whom they can share their pain (I.e dukh baatne se kam hota hai) .

After a point of time it started to become so much frustrating and depressing as I used to handle 10–12 people everyday feeling shit , and I finally stopped as I was then busy with my clients and learnings . But handing with all of them gave me a different perspective of seeing a life . I started to see my so called struggles as a path to my success . Now I’m not gonna talk about silly struggles we all have to face on daily basis as I now strongly believe that other People already have so much pain , struggles , sacrifices in their life and they’re still managing to be happy somehow and I cannot be sad for x or y thing which I know is just happening for a moment . I started to accept everything what was happening and decided to continue with it happily !

Pro tip: We all know that struggles are real . We often tend to have so much shitty thoughts whenever we get to face hardships in life . But i would say that everything gets fine one or the other day It’s the theory of acceptance and patience is what actually matters in long run . If you’re going through anything , The very first thing you should do is to talk to your parents , cry out but do not continue with that and think that way all the fuckin’ time . Try finding the solution to your problems / pains and try accepting that and wait for the things to get right !

Now what ? My pure learning phase started after i completed with my design projects , I took up Flutter and started to also upskill in designing . This is indeed a great time — yes the learning one! Also as i was guiding people regarding freelancing , startups etc , it was becoming tough to explain every detail in form of text . So I finally thought of putting it in a video / visual content which is easy to consume , convey and understand . Just trying to be the mentor for people which I never had at the time of starting up. so ya , have decided to continue with that . You can find me on Instagram and Linkedin . Let’s see what future will look like ! Hopefully it will be colorful . 😋

Pro tip: Learning is very necessary before actually getting started to earning.(learning > earning) . Experience earning in your college / school life but do not stretch it for so long . I know learning goes on forever but you’ll never get that long break of only learning and learning once you’re out of your college.

Focus more on upskilling and for many more great learnings as you move forward each step .

Also I know I’m not very successful yet but whatever has happened , from falling deep into the dig (with zero thoughts , frustrated with own self) to growing everyday with very little hardships accepting thing with patience (in all terms) is just because of my closest friend . If he wouldn’t have exist , I wouldn’t be writing this today .

Again a pro tip: Choose your friends wisely . “You’re the average of 5 friends you hang out with “. I’m kind of big fan of this wisdom words . You’ll never be able to grow if you have friends with opposite goals and vision . Please keep your community good and clean to achieve what you want easily . Good luck !

P.S- The journey will continue :) Many more failures and success coming soon .

Thanks to Tanay Pratap sir who actually gave a blog to write as an assignment and I ended up my journey till now !

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